Lately I've been thinking a lot about marriage. For a long time I didn't think I really deserved a happy marriage. Now I think I do. How does one go about meeting those magnificent available male specimens? I hate single's activities with a passion and since I don't feel like I turn heads, it will most likely continue to be a nightmare. I tried the internet but that, too, didn't fit right. I made a total fool of myself to one of my web-acquaintances.
So...I have begun to pray for him. I have had some pretty serious conversations with my Heavenly Father and I have to say I have some concerns. When a person like me is facing this dilemma, after being married to a man I was madly in love with and then lost, I am compelled to want it all...all over again. I want the new man in my life to be the man of dreams. It isn't enough for me to just have companionship or convenience. With my first husband I had butterflies in my stomach every time he kissed me, for over 22 years...butterflies...every time. It just seems like it isn't worth it, really, unless it is better or at least as good as the first one. Is it? So, do I have the right to be so picky. I would like to think I'm a prize deserving of the man of my dreams but is it really possible to find someone like that?
I have concluded that Heavenly Father knows best what I need and deserve so I'm leaving some of this up to him. I pray every prayer for that special someone that is out there for me. This will be the miracle of my lifetime. I pray also that I will recognize him. Have any of you seen him? I am so happy. And that is the good news to this - that if I never marry I would be happy right where I am.
I hope it is enough to pray myself to marriage because even though I feel ready for a relationship I don't know if I will EVER be ready for another singles' activity.
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Marriage
Posted by Pam at 10:46 PM
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4 comments:
You go mom! North Muskegon might not be the place for meeting a man though.
Okay, first of all- drop the phrase "magnificent available male specimens". I think that's 90% of the problem right there. :) Ha ha!
Suck it up, Mom. You may have to reach outside of your comfort zone a little, but what I hear even you admitting is that it will be WORTH IT! Courage, Mama. Courage. You're not looking for the men who all turn their heads. You are looking for the man Heavenly Father has prepared for you. Stop thinking about the men and focus on the MAN. He is waiting for you. All you have to do is show up.
Miracles happen! My mom and my mother-in-law are both proof. There is a man for you but he is BETTER than you think, MORE than you can imagine, and EVERYTHING you deserve. Just be ready and it will happen.
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